This week I'll be participating in the I'm Hearing Voices Character Blogfest, hosted by Angela at Live to Write...Edit When Necessary and Cassie Mae at Reading, Writing, and Lovin' it. I'll be using characters from my current project, DESTRUCTION, an upmarket contemporary fantasy about a family of dark wizards.
I am supposed to choose a character that's hard to write, and I certainly have one in this project. He's both the villain and the son of my main character. So, looking through the eyes of my MC, I have to love him while as the writer I have to make him do terrible, unlovable things.
Jude, like all wizards, likes to keep private things private. So in order to get him to answer these questions, I have to cast a spell to get him to tell the truth.
Me: Jude...you are now in a deep state of relaxation. You have nothing to fear. It is safe to answer my questions honestly. There will be no repercussions and no one will ever know your answers. I certainly am NOT going to post this on a public blog. Do you understand?
Me: What is your biggest vulnerability? Do others know this or is it a secret?
Jude: I knew I was different before my parents told me. I've been practicing magic since I was eight. I think my magic is different. Maybe I'm more powerful. My parents know about that now. But they don't know that the magic is making me feel wrong. My head is heavy. I'm so sad, I can't breathe.
Me: What do people believe about you that is false?
Jude: I think that people think I'm happy. They think I'm not afraid of anything.
Me: What would your best friend say is your fatal flaw? Why?
Jude: (Chuckles) I think you know. Anyone who knows about magic can smell it on me.
Me: That's not what I asked. I asked what would your best friend say? What would Emmy say?
Jude: Emmy doesn't see me for who I am. But she would say that I keep too many secrets. That I don't ask for help until it's too late.
Me: What would the same friend say is your one redeeming quality? Why?
Jude: Like I said, Emmy is a child, she doesn't know. She would probably say that I'm a good big brother. That I stand up for her and our brothers and sisters...yeah, even the new ones. I protect them from being bullied at school.
Me: What do you think is your one redeeming quality?
Jude: (Long pause) I really do love my brother and my sister. And my parents. It kills me that I have to hurt them in the end.
Me: What do you want most? What will you do to get it?
Jude: I want two things. I want to be able to practice magic, to really see what I can do. But I also want to be normal again. To feel sane again. But I know I can't have both. I will choose magic, and I will give everything for it. I will destroy myself.